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living failure ft. josh delvendo

by Codex Obscura

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living failure ft. josh delvendo 03:56
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just in case you care; please don't worry about me if you love me, please worry i am not okay i don't care for myself i don't want to die here life in paint i chose my canvas and a palette of colors too dull and an easel that's broken step back, thumb out, and see that it's fucked let me out regardless of what i say out loud i am a fucking prisoner in my self hatred "no one fucking matters" i always try to tell myself to cope with the emptiness of casting all my friends away anger and depression; giving up and hiding is the quickest and easiest method of social suicide "i won't" "i can't" "i don't" "it won't work" "i'm not" "i've tried" these are all the things i say to make myself believe i'm lost beyond help no one can save me writhing in agony i am all alone and it's my fault pulling out my hair pounding heart inside trying to catch a grip panic is the only thing that i can feel overtaking anger, flagellate myself for feeling happiness hatred is my being and my downfall i am fueled by misanthropy threat of death manipulating mechanisms making pain more palatable to myself i will suffer voluntarily to make you all remember my existence self-inflicted injuries shining like a beacon in an ocean of despair i don't want your pity i just want to know you care i am pathetic i will make myself the victim so you can't get to me turning all my insecurities outward i hate you because you like yourself unlike me i don't want to admit that it's okay to be imperfect i will never meet my own standards i see myself a living failure

about

some things i have dealt with in the past and some things i continue to deal with
we are our own worst critics, and sometimes it's easy to forget that

despite however much i may hurt, i am incredibly grateful for having been able to experience the beautiful chaos that is human life in this universe

i love you

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released January 3, 2018

Miira - Everything
Josh DelVendo - End solo

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Codex Obscura North Carolina

i am a depressed meat robot that outputs deathcore about how bad i feel all of the time. i write and record all the music, and most unfortunately, i engineer it as well.

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